The Downfall...

I NEED TO PEE!!!!

I'm getting tired of people who are just your friend because its convenient... seriously.. im going to start treating people the way they treat me... instead of getting dicked by people and them talking to me only when they want something. its funny when you need me your quick to come to me, but when i need someone to talk to or vent about something, you could care less... this isnt directed to everyone, and if you read this and wonder, hey i think FJ is talking about me, then chances are.. i am.. so to all of you who just read this and think im talking to you go eat a dick

IM GETTING DRUNK WITH MY NIGGA WILLY!!

Let me first just say when I first saw the trailer for this movie, I thought it looked awesome. It was one of the movies that i wanted to see this year. The trailer looked amazing and it looked like it was going to be a great movie. This should of sign to me, since i am a Star Wars fan, and when it comes to Star Wars vs Star Trek, I always side with Star Wars. After seeing this movie, I am going on record that i will never hate on Star Trek. Going into this movie without even seeing a single Star Trek episode. Now i want to go back and watch the original series. This movie was great from start to finish. Not at any point in the movie did i feel it was slow. Within the first minute, you're thrown into the action. The movie tells the story of why James T. Kirk joins the Starfleet Academy, How the Enterprise was put into service, and How the crew basically became the crew. Movie plot is good, i don't really want to give away any details to the story because i think you should all watch it.

THE FUCKING COW IS MOOOING HOOKERS THE FUCKING COW!!!!!


actually i dont know what that means but its fucking funny to me right now.. btw....

ITS THE FUCKING WEEKEND.. NOW I CAN SIT IN MY ROOM AND BE LIKE, I HAVE NOTHING TO FUCKING DO.. AND IF YOU ARE ONE OF THE UNLUCKY PEOPLE THAT I TALK TO ON A NORMAL BASIS YOU ARE FUCKED CAUSE IM BOTHER THE SHIT OUT OF YOU WHILE IM IN THIS RANDOM MOOOD...


GO GO POWER RANGERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm bored.... and i hate you all......

So, today everything seemed like it was going to be an awesome day, but like always something has to bother me. So I was in the elevator with my boss, and he tells me the owner of our company had a meeting with him, about me no being reliable. First i'd like to call a time out... How the fuck is it im not reliable, I come to work every fucking day, so what the fuck is this shit about me being non reliable. I think its because my car is broke down and the motha fuckers think im not gonna show up to work. Its sad when you work for a company who has no fucking clue about reality what so ever. Its bad when i have been with the company for 3 years and i've never really had a functional car, so how is this time any different from normal. I think these fucks just flat out don't like me and want to fucking move me away from where i am. Since work is getting slim they want to fucking probably lay me off, but fuck that shit. Let a nigga lay me off just to let someone else keep their job, i will gladly, and i mean gladly chin check that bitch ass owner and his fucking fat fuck brother, so fuck these niggas. Fuck Carter, and Fuck daytona, im tired of these redneck whores...

Reflecting on the past is starting to become a hobby of mine. At some point I'm going to need to look ahead and stop wishing i could be in the past. I really need to realize that there is no going back, and that i need to look towards tomorrow. I see pictures of people i knew from high school who i just let drop off the map. Some happened to be really good friends at the time. Other people i just knew over time, and let the friendship die. Do i really gotta be the person who keeps a friendship going? its a two way road isn't it. There are some things i would of changed in the past, But now is not the time to be worried about what i could have done, it is the time to start thinking of what i can do. I think its time for a change. I need to work on somethings to get my life back on track. First thing is first I'm going to need a ride. This shit with me sitting at home all weekend is going to have to stop. This cant be happening. I need to go places and meet some females that aren't crazy. If history has shown me anything, Girls do like my personality, I've had more than one girl tell me, they'd kill themselves if i left them. Granted Crazy bitches are crazy, but shit... i pull the crazies. So After i get a car. I will be trying to find me some females, also i need to lose some weight. i started to last year and i just stopped... fuck that. this year, I'm going to do it. I'm charge my zune, and go running again. I sit here all day and do nothing. Might as well fucking use my time wisely.

So today after having the feeling it was close to happening. The Transmission crapped out on me. So i did what any person who needs help would do. i asked for money, after being told to ask if i needed help by my company. The vice president said he would try to help me if i needed money. So i asked, and they told me no. Not only that they also basically said your shit out of luck. Like, we understand you dont make alot of money, and your in school, and you drive 60 miles a day to goto work, but you can work with your dad who works 5 minutes away from your house, because we dont want that. Infact we hear alot of good things about you from florida health care. So we wanna keep you there. We are concerned with the fact you take loans out on your car all the time. So im sorry we can help you. hope you make it to work with no car.


Nigga.. is you fucking stupid.. did you not tell me last month that when the car shits on me to come to you for a loan, and your gonna tell me no? Wtf concerned i ask for loans for my car? YES THATS RIGHT I FUCKING ASK FOR 1000 DOLLARS ALL THE TIME SO I CAN BUY THE BIGGEST AMOUNT OF FUCKING COCAIN SO I CAN JUST PUT A PILE OF IT ON MY FUCKING DESK AND SNORT THE SHIT OUT OF IT. fucking douche how about you come off your brand new fucking car you just brought with the company money.. since you obviously dont need to worry about gas, maintenance, or anything else since you get it all thru the company. asshole... im so fucked.. i dont got no money.. i gotta cancel my insurance. i cant do anything i planned... life has a funny way of dicking me over this time of the year....

You know, its funny how i sit here and i think about how time goes by and everything happens around me. Three years ago... around this time.. i made my venture into the magical world of the orange anime IRC. It was a small group of 3 people one was an idler. With all the time i spent in there something great happened.. i found some awesome people. As time passed this small group grew into something awesome, epic, and something i finally felt accepted in. I had alot of people i would consider my friends. and thru this means i made alot more. Some i'd take a bullet for. Sadly i wish i could stand here today and say how we are all cool and we still have the same greatness we had when it all started. Sadly i cant tell you that after that first irc breakfast at that denny's in Deerfield, There was more like it. Just as quick as it started the died and changed multiple times. Whether someone choose to go their own route. Or if they decide they were only there for one person who they liked, Or maybe someone wanted to cause drama. Sadly today, IRC is held together by memories and people who miss what it used to be like. Some people just totally faded away, while others got soaked into internet drama and gay fandoms, and choose to exile themselves. Some i just plain lost respect for. What happened in a two year span was the rise and fall of a great group of friends. That werent as close as they tried to portray. Drama was the main cause of this. Whether It was Asuka, or Orange Anime, or Kiss, Doesn't matter. I learned that nothing is going to be there always. If it wasnt for irc i dont know what i'd be doing right now.. for all i know i could of died of depression, or who knows, but what i do know is that my homies.. and they know who they are, are some of my best friends, if not best. Im kinda upset at how this awesome group turned out, i could probably out some people and have them get pissed at me, but im sure i probably dont need to say a word.. i sure they know, and they probably dont care. Who knows. I just wanted to reflect on friendships i made over the last two years, and to the ones who actually try to maintain those friendships with me. I enjoy every moment i have with you all. thanks for being pimps when i nigga needs them.

-FJ